For the nth time in last one-and-a-half year, I visited my doctor yesterday. He explained the same reasons for my sickness and same precautions, especially what to eat and what not to.
This period of one and a half year IS significant. Because I started preparing for civil services in Feb 2007. Since then, it has been studies, studies, studies, and more studies. Well, there is no debate that studies is THE raw material to become a finished product (read IAS officer).
But in my case, this process has been agonizing. And the agony is due to the fact that i lost frequent contact with my old friends. To add to that, I did not make any new ones.
So I have realized that the reason behind all my problems (including my frequent illness and short temper) is my loneliness, that I opted for.
Now I even wonder that was it really a wise decision to take a sabbatical from the mainstream??
The answer that comes out of my gut is YES.
But I need to do something bout this loneliness.
Oh no!! I am not looking for a girl
:-).
Just need to socialize a bit more.
It's just that I need to be more involved in the society.
Just cycling for 10 kms everyday wont do.
I know that It is a really bad phase I am going through.
Coz due to my sickness, i am unable to concentrate, and have not studied a single word for two days.
And I do know that i shall overcome this thing quite soon.
But till then, it's all frustration.
Hope I never experience this thing again.
And let me hope for the best.
